I did all the stuff I was supposed to. im done. I can’t . I don’t understand life. I really don’t. I don’t know how to do it right. The groups and books a counsellors taught me to communicate. When I do it that way I give so much of me and get nothing in return. Then I sit broken hearted with no explanation….no this time it’s for real. Just another fuck you that previously resulted in a sorry….but noSorry this time….just fuck you. If you keep changing the rules how can i play the game? If we need a rule change let’s discuss it…they make sure in hockey to tell players if rules change. You can’t put me in the box if i didn’t know I was breaking a rule. I’ve never understood this. I don’t know how to mind read.
My rules are always so clear. Here are my needs. Yes you can get away iwhy no filling my needs but I will always remind you what they are. They are clear. I will never leave. The only relationship ener for me is if you cheat. I can work through everything else. I will give up on my needs to keep you happy. You will know this. My needs are simple and rarely change. Souls they change I would let you know. You have no chance if I don’t tell you. I always want you to succeed.
How is this hard? How when I ask what do you need me to change so we can be happier, can you not answer? Your answer “I need us not to fight”. I say let’s figure out what that looks like. You say I don’t want to talk about it I just want it to change. Well, I don’t want to eat right or excercise but I’d like to lose weight………..
A 30 min conversation once a week could have saved hours of fighting and chaos. A plan. Hearing needs and options an finding a middle ground could have saved so much pain. We both know we have work to do…helping each other learn how….revising where we lacked success….hearing both sides openly….willingness to do our parts and then evaluate. The Reward? Happiness and truly unbreakable love.
it just seems so logical and so compassionate and peaceful to do it this way….but you refused….